For You

Hi..
Could I take your time just for 10 minutes?
But, firstly, would you play a music that I mentioned to you before, while you read this kinda long story? Okay, I'll remind you, the song is Bandage - Adhitia Sofyan.

Hmm..
Thank you for willing to do it. I'm so sorry because I wrote it in English. I'm preventing to make you uncomfortable. I thought that if I wrote it in Bahasa, It'll be excessively. I always postpone to write it, but I think I have to let you know something that I can't say to you and I can't wait for our anniversary day to say it -_-

Sorry, I'm just a girl with the imperfections behind me. I always make you mad with my childish nature. I always do every single thing with my own ego and It'll become a disaster. I always ruin everything that you've made before, even I always do the thing that you hate the most. I knew it, I already knew it exactly..

Maybe I can't describe how deep I love you, how often I think of you, how much I miss you, and how scared I am if I lose you. But, here I am. I'm trying to describe it through the words that I write for you. 

I love you with the way you are, i love to observe you. The way you walk, laugh, mad, eat, smile.. But my favorite is seeing the way you see me..

I'm a girl who wanna hug you for all night long, wanna kiss you until you fall asleep, and wanna see you in my every morning. I wanna wake up on your arm, and give you a morning kisses that suffocate you. I wanna make you a breakfast and prepare you to go to work. I wanna wait you until you back at dawn, night, even late night. And I really wanna be your home, the woman who knows you so well (instead of your mom :p). I'm so happy if you wanna share your story for a night, a funny, happy, even the worst problem that you ever had. I'll stay awake just for hear it from you..

Sorry, I already took you to be a part of my life, my priority. I already relied on you, didn't care how much I'm trying not to. It becomes uncontrolled time by time. Have I change it?

But, the most important thing that I wanna let you know, I always feel sad whenever I remember that you feel annoy because of my nature. Last night, I saw a post that said, "If someone loves you, he will not tell you that you need to change". I of course will change the bad one to make me become a better person. But, have I change the thing that you dislike from me? I mean, everything? Won't you try to love my bad? Even one? Once again, I'm sorry, but I didn't see that post on a purpose and becoming sad..

I just wanna say, I love all of your nature, all of your habit, even the good and bad one. Stay with your own way, just change the thing that you wanna change. Thank you for being my spirit when I feel upset, my sunshine when the day gets darker. It's you, and forever will be..

Note : It isn't a propose, so don't get touched :p
Sorry for the bad english.